I Believe that Wealth is Useless, Having a Baby is Mean, and Dating is Nonsense
I’m having a conflict. By writing this I hope to solve my conflict. Here’s the conflict: I’m having a crush on a guy, but I believe that a relationship is a burden. To make things easier for you, let me tell you about my beliefs. They may come off as a little weird:
- I believe that wealth is useless.
- I believe that having a baby is mean.
- I believe that dating is nonsense.
I don’t blame you if you think I’m a freak at this point; even my mom does not think too highly of my beliefs. But if you would give me a chance, let me try to convince you otherwise. I have proofs.
Wealth is Useless
This first belief doesn’t really have to do with the story, but since a trilogy sounds better than a bilogy, let me show it to you.
It is a fact that a person can only spend that much on necessary items in a day. What I mean by necessary items is food, clothing, shelter, medicine, and some savings for emergency. In order to spend more than that, the person must also spend on items that he/she does not need, or in other words, luxury. Luxury items are pretty much indispensable if the person wants to show off his/her financial status. However, I view financial status as insignificant. Financial status only earns temporary respect, which dies the moment you’re stripped off your Armani attire. On the other hand, respect earned through good deeds is everlasting–look at the statues of the brave and noble that dot European cities–this kind of respect will be with you to your graves. Since I don’t believe in the respect earned through financial status, luxury items are rendered useless. Therefore, wealth, which is the money left over from necessities, is also rendered useless.
Having a Baby is Mean
I believe that having a baby is mean. It is a general and indisputable truth that every man has to suffer at some point in his/her life. Moreover, according to the dictionary, the word “mean” describes a person who knowingly causes another person to get hurt. Thus, having a baby, knowing that the baby will have to suffer when it grows up, is mean.
Dating is Nonsense
A person dates in order to get into a relationship. A relationship is friendship + love + sex. Digging deeper, sex is actually enjoyment + reproduction. Now sexual enjoyment is nature’s way of tricking you into the act of reproduction. Since sexual enjoyment is a trick, and having a baby is mean (see above), sex is nonsense. With sex being nonsense, what remains of a relationship is friendship + love, which can be reduced to relationship = friendship, because friendship can also contain love. Thus, if dating leads to a relationship, which is basically the same as a friendship, we can conclude that dating is nonsense.
Did my proofs convince you?
Back to my story. I was doing very well with my beliefs, until he caught my attention. I was impressed by his knack of _____, and before I know it, he has crept into my consciousness at every hour of the day.
I know it’s caused by hormones, and that the feeling will soon fade away (as it has always done in the past). But right now it is screaming too strongly inside me. I want him to hear, loud and clear, that “I’m crazy about you.”
The more I want to say that, the more entangled my heart becomes, because what my emotions dictate me are the direct opposite of what I believe in. I do not want to be in a relationship, and yet I’m in love. I’m in love, and yet I do not want to be in a relationship.
It’s very easy to let him know how I feel, but I cannot let him know. There is no point of doing it.
I’m nearing the end of my entry, but the conflict does not seem to lighten up at all. I know that this conflict will revisit me a thousand more times before I grow old enough that my sexual hormones stop functioning, because I must admit, am a flirt. I have hurt a few boys, and a few boys have hurt me. I don’t need another lesson to learn that being a single is the greatest gift I can give to myself.
Note: I wrote this entry some time ago, but did not post.