I couldn’t understand the ferocity of passion, ethusiasm and motivation people took away from these obviously inspiring events, situations, people and religion(if you can call Buddhism a religion).

First I faulted myself and then I gave up trying to feel inspired. I was convinced I wouldn’t do anything inspiring to others – how could I if I wasn’t capable of taking away inspiration from others?

Then something almost semi-nibbana like happened. At the most unexpected of times – after lunch in a meeting when I am usually half asleep :-) , I had an idea. This was last year. What the idea was and in what domain doesn’t really matter. If the idea was successful in implementation doesn’t matter either.

In the hours, days, weeks and months that followed, many of those experiences that I thought hadn’t meant a thing to me would just well up as I very mindfully applied some of the discipline, ethics, morals and methodologies my mind had apparently persisted to what I was doing.

Instant inspiration is superficial in that it draws at what you are feeling at that moment. What you might take away from listening to somebody or any experience becomes apparent much later when the time comes for *it to matter to you*.

And then it is you and you are it. On that cryptic note, I’m going to press ’submit’ hoping I have not exceed the char limit :).

Even though I doubt the sincerity of your posting, his speech was not very inspiring to me either.

You shouldn’t worry much. Behave as usual, be happy. As the time pass by, you will find the place for yourself.

In my theory, if people feel that they have already fulfilled their space of satisfaction, with a little help of these evils, the space will expand and the new void area is what we can call a ‘dream’. Of course, this is for people who want ‘dream’.

Sometimes it’s good not having a dream.